January 18, 2017

Freedom of Speaking My Mind

When I was in 5th grade, there was a speech competition focused on freedom, I think. Or maybe it was inventions. Either way, I'm pretty sure one of my classmates, Karalyne or Katherine won with their speech about trains.

I went a less straight-forward route. I wrote about the telephone.

We were still in the midst of the 1980s bit of the Cold War, and tapped phone lines were part of the vernacular of the time. It was a prevalent theme in movies, along with bugging various objects in any given space a person might occupy.

I found the speech several years ago, although I have no clue where it is now, while going through stuff at my parents' house, or in some box Mom shipped off while on a cleaning spree. It was simple and complex, big-picture and small potatoes. It was the rambling of a child who has a warped idea of a country portrayed as out-to-get-us, fed by movies and television shows and the nightly news.

It was also fueled by living 30 miles from Oak Ridge and the knowledge that nuclear weapons were being built there...and that it was a serious possibility that our city would be wiped out early if nuclear war were to break out. (Note: this was a time when we would regularly have bomb drills where we would crouch under our desks, arms and hands covering our heads...like that would help at all in the case of a blast or fallout.)

Back to the speech. I remember lamenting the Russians ability to speak freely. The horror of having to watch what you say. The inability to criticize the government, or a neighbor, for fear of retribution and being locked in a gulag in Siberia.
Doctor Zhivago (1965)


Fast forward to my college days. I was a fierce advocate for the Free Burma movement. I regularly gathered hundreds of signatures in a matter of hours, sent them to Halliburton, Total, Texaco and a handful of other multi-national corporations, asking them to divest from business in Burma and to stop supporting the military junta in power (The State Law and Order Restoration Council--SLORC at the time) which was inflicting human rights abuses and forcibly relocating dozens of ethnic minority groups throughout the country, and in particular, those in the paths of the pipelines these companies were working to build.

I became convinced that my phone was tapped. I heard clicks while interviewing a member of the Pogues for my college paper. I heard clicks while speaking with my friends. I was a little paranoid the the FBI had a file on me, and that Dick Cheney (then at Halliburton) was out to get me. Of course, I have no proof. And, it stopped eventually.

In light of the apparent return of the Cold War within our most recent presidential election, I can't help but think back to that 5th grade speech competition. Today, I used my freedom telephone to call a whole bunch of US Senators to ask them to oppose a cabinet nominee who I believe to be grossly unqualified for the position, and whom I believe would dismantle public education, something I benefited from in elementary, middle and high school.

I believe in our freedom to speak truth to power and am grateful to have had the time and energy to do so today.

January 15, 2017

Truth, Justice and the American Way


This afternoon I had the privilege of being an audience member at Nashville's Writers Resist: Voices for Social Justice, hosted by The Porch Writers' Collective, located at Scarritt Bennett. We were given a writing prompt during the intermission, and I was inspired. The poets and songwriters who performed their own and others' works were moving and got my creative juices flowing. At the end of the scheduled program, the event closed with an open mic for those who wished to share what they wrote during the intermission. After several people read their beautiful poems, my heart began to beat out of my chest and I lumbered down the steps to the front of the room and the podium. With tears in my eyes and flowing down my cheeks, I read the following poem.



Truth, Justice and the American Way
 
"Hey, Jew," said the 7th grader passing me in the hall between classes, 
a swastika on the back of his jacket in masking tape. 
Another that he tossed onto my lunch table, 
folded into a paper note, 
the black lines wrapping around themselves, 
taunting me,
making me feel smaller than my 13 year old body.

The adults didn't know, didn't see. 
I tell my brother, the scrawny older sibling who confronts my bully 
surrounded by his linebacker high school friends. 
"Don't look at my sister, 
don't talk to her. 
Stay away from her."

Not the last time I felt the burden of ignorance 
forcing shame upon me for my ancestry. 
Fear builds in my belly, 
my ire sparked, 
I want to lash out, 
share my people's strength, resilience and 
hold my head up high 
while crushing stereotypes and prejudice. 
I find solidarity in just pursuits.

Hillel's words lead me to righteous deeds 
and occasional righteous indignation. 
"If not now, when?"

Tzedek, tzedek tir dof
Justice, justice I shall pursue. 
These words of my ancestors are my truth.